Cost of grief is finally paid

It hurts already,

No one’s on my side,

Insanity is steady,

Farewell; all abide,

All alone, with no one to hold,

Me, when I’m breaking into tiny folds,

A million pieces, all shattered away,

True to my word, got nothing to say.

With a cold expression, I arrogantly stride,

To mask the tearful devastated pride.

Tears and fears all clawing away,

Inside, outside, keeping at bay.

Just enough for me to survive,

To lead on a miserable meaningless life.

Meteors striking, mind going absurd,

A voice that won’t again ever be heard,

But history will never be repeated,

I will never again be cheated,

I was led on, I made mistakes,

Won’t fall again in the seamless lakes,

Won’t let fate take its course,

Won’t let destiny play again hoarse,

This time I’ll win, be on the other side,

This I’ll fight, and seek those who hide.

For after all this time I finally learned to strife,

To walk alone by myself in life.

Through darkness and light, it’s my parade,

Where I’ll be when the cost of grief is finally paid.