You gradually realize that everyone leaves and you soon realize no one will stay forever. And when they leave, you will realize that you don't need them anymore. And what's more you won't need to need them either. You will feel the tears in your eyes and you will feel the cuts on your hands but you know you won't go back to them because that's how it always is and that's how life goes on. They won't need you and maybe they never did. Everyone says time heals you but that's not true. It doesn't get easier; you just get better at dealing with what hurts you. That's how you become immune to pain. It's not easy, growing up and you make mistakes, oh so many that you even lose count. But every mistake costs you, it's very few ones that don't. They take away a piece of your personality that you will never get back. It's very few ones that don't. They say perfection is when there's nothing left to take away so I guess they call an empty soul perfection, a dead face beautiful and a fightless spirit willful. Happiness never stays and they say what stays becomes stagnant. Maybe that's why all these ugly emotions pile up and become sadness; because they're stagnant and spoil over time. Words change and promises break and all that was said is forgotten. Love fades away, and when it doesn't it stays to tear you down to your most vulnerable state. It changes you from being blissful to broken and as the ashes turn to dust, you just stare into nothingness wondering if this is what life is really about.
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So I vented this out on my phone one day and I was going through my stuff today and thought why not post it. Happy Reading!
